organizing is key

after thinking about things for a bit and talking them over with Doctor Mom, i have decided on the following plan of action to improve my life in the short term. my plan is to go back on Celexa as soon as possible. with all the new stresses in my life, i don't feel like trying to function anymore without it. i still have a prespcription for it that needs a refill, but i have to hand in my insurance forms tomorrow so i can get the meds and only pay a 10 dollar copay. after i start on that and i settle down some, i'm going back on my diet-excercise plan thing that always works until i experience a total life change or someone close to me DIES. seriously, the last two times i tried this diet, i was able to stay on it until i a)had a friend of the family die, and b)had my favorite cousin die. i can never seem to keep up with a fuckin' diet when someone close to me dies. plus when i'm depressed i tend to want to eat a lot of starchy foods, because they're easier to make and they are nice and gooey. i can't indulge in comfort food and be on a special diet at the same time. it kind of ruins that whole "food as fuel" perspective.

i had a good weekend, but i am so damned exhausted that i don't feel like talking about it.