some days

i feel like a different person today. one dose of Celexa and my reaction to everything is different. i didn't feel yucky at work. i woke up at 5:30 am and didn't feel pissed off about having to get out of bed. and i predicted this reaction, too. i know exactly what will happen to my mental state when i increase my serotonin levels. my brain is nothing but a vat of chemicals, being transferred around by little fleshy wires. does this bother me? not really.

i just don't feel angsty at all right now, and it's one hell of a relief.