dude

i just slimed myself with a Tension Tamer teabag! but i did it on purpose! just to show that i have SOME control over my universe! and now i smell like lemon, so it was all worthwhile!!

i had the worst day today. it was one of those days when i couldn't do anything right, and wasn't fully awake until about 1:30pm. i don't feel like i'm learning anything. extracting DNA is boring and easy. it's the same thing i did at my old job, except there is less of a challenge. part of the problem is that i have no life outside of my work, and i'm not convinced that my work is anything important at the moment. i'm just a mindless cog in the biotech wheel, trying to organize paperwork, do menial tasks, and extract DNA as fast as i can, with the help of some fancy-ass robots. i feel like i'll never be fast enough and i'll end up being cut. right now my brain is faster than my hands because i'm brand new and don't know where everything is, and it scares me. i'm pissed off that i have to be a trainee all over again. and i really hate that i don't know anyone around here, and that Framingham is boring.
i was thinking of attempting a trip to Manray by myself, just for something to do, since i have gas in my car and no plans tonight. i need some "cheering up"...nothing like a goth club to boost your spirits. but the longer i sit here the more i realize how tired i am today, and how little energy i can really afford to spend clubbing.
i might just go to the guitar center and pick up my bass amp. it's already almost half paid as it is...

help me, i'm bored i need to be entertained!!