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G is supposedly in Framingham this weekend, and was supposed to get in touch with me. Guess who blew me off? Well this has me pretty fuckin' pissed off. It's a rare weekend when I don't have to travel 80 to 100 miles just to see my friends, and get away from this house. I think I'm going to send him an email and let him know just how dissatisfied I am with him.

My housemate's daughter is really unfriendly. Normally, I'd say who gives a shit what some 13 year old little brat thinks of me, but I usually get along somewhat with teenagers. And I have to LIVE in the same house with her! She fuckin' hates me, I swear. That's why "hanging out" in the house is not an option. If I don't get out today, I'll just rot, in my room, afraid to leave, lest I be assaulted with the bad vibes which I have less and less strength to deal with as time passes. I think I need to talk to her mother, but I'm afraid she'll get defensive about her kids and point the finger at me, because I'm the "new element". Ugh, I am so weak. Why don't I just get some balls...

Maybe I need to get out and drive to Western Mass after all. I feel like such a wuss, using that escape route all the time. But what am I supposed to do?

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just finished watching Donnie Darko. i think i'm still in a trance. it was just what i needed, but i hope i don't have nightmares about satanic bunnies when i go to sleep tonight. everyone needs to go watch that movie. thought-provoking stuff.

i think i officially despise gaming. some people treat it like an addiction. it's no better than heroin. the games take priority over actual people, it's like having fun with your best friend and having to run out in the middle of everything because your pusher has something for you now. "sorry, it's been great, but i have to go play a game now." "sorry, it's been great, but i have to go to my room and shoot up and sit there and be high." i'm so flattered that you worked me into your gaming schedule...really...but i didn't have time to reposition my last nerve so you wouldn't get on it...

next weekend i'll be planting a tree for jack in Lee, MA. and introducing my grandmother to Nutella. i think i'll get some blackberry brandy to go with the blackberry juice cocktail i discovered a couple of weeks ago. then i'll get myself some drugs and see about getting in shape.