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can I go back to work somehow? if so, how?? I don't know what to do. if I keep this up...well clearly the only option left to me is Mom's house and she's making me want to kill myself. literally. it's pathetic but if I want to afford living anywhere else, I will need to increase my income. but I feel sick almost all of the time. did I do something in a past life to warrant all this?
I need answers. I need solutions. I need help, possibly divine intervention. I am at a total loss. and I would be coping a lot more effectively with being stuck here if I weren't regularly bombarded by nagging, monitoring, temper flares and a million stupid fucking rules that don't allow me to live freely, period.