angst

It's been less than a week since I decided not to pour my angst out here, but I think it's already making a positive difference in my life.

I'm finally reading that book that weegoddess lent me....rather, I started reading it a week or two ago...I'm getting a lot out of it.

Should I consider physical health updates to be angst? I'm thinking no....that's more like straight reporting.
My current status: it would be cool to discover some MEGA heavy duty expectorant, and get this collection of junk out of my throat. Barring that, I'll be spending a lot of time asleep if I can. I'm really nasty sick at the moment, but I've decided to just stop worrying about it. Who cares? I do what I can!

I kind of want a cup of GOOD coffee from True Grounds. I don't think I can make it to Diesel tonight, I'm too sick to walk into Davis. Hmm.

progress!

After sitting on it for 2.5 months, I finally wrote a letter to my ex-landlord asking for my security deposit back. I'm sending the simple, nice letter first, and if I don't get a response, I'll be a bit pushier. It's rightfully my cash, I took good care of the place while I was there, and he owes me.

There's a slight possibility that he sent the entire deposit to my old roommate---if she is in fact witholding my portion, that would be sort of amusing. I'm not sure why...maybe because I would never do something like that, regardless of how much I disliked a roommate?
Hmm, probably shouldn't have allowed my mind to go there. I'll just stop that right now.

bluepapercup rocks. She brought me a coffee from True Grounds and hung out with me for awhile this evening. Since I can't do Diesel, that totally made my day! I'm a people-addict.

There's a sort of relief in being this level of sick. In this state, there's no question that I'm going to stay home in bed. I have so many things going wrong with my body that I can't function well enough to walk ten minutes into town. And therefore, the pressure to push myself, or feel guilty for not doing so, has vanished! The decision is made for me.

Now I'm going to have green pepper slices with hummus.