chocolate milkshake

nothing like desperation and watching your savings drain to make me a persuasive writer! today i responded to an ad forwarded to me by Sian (who is subsequently on my list of golden idols now) for a research tech in a cell death lab at a CANCER INSTITUTE. now that's goddamn exciting work!! not to mention i worked in a cell death lab for a year! hallelujah!! we'll just see how it goes. i like to think i charmed the recruiter's pants off with my coverletter, though.

and while my somerville friend is not prepared for a regular roommate, she offered to let me crash there for a bit while i get my crap together. if it pans out, it will be one of the best favors anyone's done me so far.

my car battery died today...i just wanted a jump start, but mom threw a fit and insisted i get a new battery. we went to two junkyards looking for one, in the rain...the result was screaming, fear, and agony, and eventual solving of the problem.
my mom bothers me on a very superficial level. no one else is so adept at getting me to lose my composure and start shouting and cursing...and yet, i love her to death and forget it all in a matter of minutes. very strange, since usually people bug me on a deep level, and i'm able to be calm and civil, even SMILE on the outside, but bear a grudge sometimes for ten fuckin' years. i can carry a friendly conversation with people i despise. but with Mom, i get all growly and irritable easily, then invite her over for tea and hugs ten minutes later. is this an alternate personality, i wonder?

ehh. i'll probably never understand that relationship.
but i should move to another city, so my personality can get back to "normal"....whatever that is....