cellomusette | (no subject)

hmm. it seems strange that a couple of weeks ago i was rattling on about what a people person i am, and now all i can think of is how i'd rather be by myself than meet new people or even deal with the people i already know. having spent a couple of years at Umass coming out of my shell, i suddenly feel like i'm rebuilding the shell and crawling back in. how does that work?
i think i know why, and i'm not sure i care to talk about it here. there's not much i even want to discuss with anyone anymore.

i'm repeating myself. everything i say is some variant of "i don't like people, my social skills are dissolving, i want to be a hermit, i'm going to go grin at the fucking daisies because they won't give me any shit about it."

so i'll shut up.

but this is a little bit scary. it doesn't really feel like me. i can't identify myself anymore.